I’ve been feeling depressed about this lately. See, all my life the only approvals I ever got came from my mum. Never from my dad. My dad always disapproved of everything I did because I did things my way, not the way the daughters of his friends would do, which was the only way to get his approval.
Lately I’ve been aching to hear someone from my side of the family to tell me that they’re happy to know that I’m happy and that they’re proud of everything I’ve achieved in my life but alas, no such luck. Only my mum would say that kind of thing and she’s dead. It kind of sucks.
Anyway, I just need to get that off my chest. Sorry for being depressing. Next entry will be happyish, I promise.