Sometimes I Lose Faith in Humanity

“Sometimes the world makes me angry,” I said. “Sometimes I put the weight of the world on my shoulders and I cry.”

He said, “Don’t worry about it. The world will fix itself.”

I said, “I don’t know about that…”

(I do want to believe that the world will fix itself somehow, but I just can’t.)

Emir and Ayra

Saw this picture of my little nephew and niece in my sister-in-law’s Facebook account and I just had to steal it. They were just babies when I left Indonesia and look how big they are now! And how gorgeous! And what beautiful smiles! My mum would’ve been so proud if she could see them. I think I’m falling in love with them all over again. My niece Ayra turned 5 last month and my nephew Emir is going to be 6 in October, which means they’re both currently 5 years old. I think they’re the cutest 5 year-olds EVER! And you just can tell that they love each other.

This proud aunt moment is brought to you by chocolate caramel pecan cheesecake and the number 2.

To Paint or Not to Paint

So these are pictures of our little house. It’s still sporting the current owners’ decorating style, which is not necessarily similar to mine. Mine would be crazier and less traditional. That said, I’d just like to ask for your opinions. If it was your house, would you paint the door and the window trims and the baseboard white? I want to because I think it would refresh and update the look but I’m a little afraid because it’s something that you can’t really undo. Some people, including Troy, like the wood, but not me. I’m not planning on painting over the stairs and the kitchen cupboards, though. They can stay the way they are. What do you think?

I’m so excited about all the storage space in the kitchen and the bathroom. I love storage. And I can’t wait to starting my own garden in the backyard and to making the front yard look less boring. And to washing that filthy back wall by the deck. Oh yes, that wall could definitely use some good power-washing. And/or painting. Though exterior painting means regular maintenance, which we’re not too crazy about, so maybe not.

So I lied a little in my last entry about not being excited about the house any more. I sure still am! :)

Desperado

The excitement of buying a house has kind of worn off now and replaced by the worries of not being able to find a job that will keep me happy. The thing is, I’m not a people person and I have very little patience for stupid people, meaning jobs that require a lot of human interaction (i.e., retail) is out of the question. In the ideal world anyway. In this not so ideal world, I might have to take one and honestly, just the thought is enough to make me feel depressed.

I kind of wish I could go back to being a librarian, but in Canada, it calls for a master’s degree, which I am lacking. See, once upon a time, I had to choose between doing my master’s degree in Indonesia and going back to Canada. I chose the latter. And here I am! Happy in personal life but not so happy when it comes to employment. Going back to school here is not really an option at the moment, unfortunately.

I’d be happy enough if I could make a steady $1,000 income a month working from home on the computer. Anyone want to hire me to do website maintenance? Anyone? It’s cheap labour! I can also take pictures of you and/or your loved ones. Hell, I’ll even do weddings (supposedly the most stressful type of photography). With Troy beside me and a camera in front of me, I’m okay with dealing with people. And I guess I should pimp my Etsy shop, now that it’s up and running. If you want to purchase a print of any pictures I’ve ever posted on Flickr or in my photoblog, just let me know and I’ll make it available through the shop.

And thus ends my desperate call for employment and a little bit of income. Because, you know, desperate times call for desperate measures. Not that we’re seriously broke right now, but we will be once we moved in next month. Mortgage is one big, scary monster.